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My darlings, this is not my typical kind of Thanksgiving Weekend post. This post is going to be raw and honest. It deals with a heavy topic that could be triggering for some. Please reach out if it is. We’re all in this life together.

This week, I opened up for the first time about being sexually assaulted when I was young. It’s a conversation that was long overdue. There have been tears. There has been a flood of suppressed emotions. And I heard the words that I desperately needed to, which I’ve been trying to convince myself for over 15 years now – “It was not your fault.”  Continue reading

just not today

just not today | alltheamusement.com

This is the weekend that the stars were supposed to align.

We had picked the date because it was a New Moon*: a time of fresh beginnings and new challenges. The start of the next chapter of life. This was the day that I’d finally get a check mark on that ungodly “Life Check-List”. The check-list that I have spent my entire life worrying about, and striving for – but mostly, of not measuring up against. It was finally my time.

And then I realized it wasn’t.  Continue reading

in this moment

in this moment | alltheamusement.com

Sometimes, it’s easy to get caught up in worrying about the future. After watching a silly romance movie and spending some time with my budget, I found myself in that precise predicament this weekend.

The downward spiral ensued.

It’s weird how your mind can start with just one small negative thought and have it manifest itself into total destruction. And so quickly, too! It’s actually quite impressive, despite how much it sucks.

To turn things around, I decided to give gratitude a try.  Continue reading