today is not a birthday

Today is one of those days – a day that will be a reoccurring milestone every year which reminds me of a life gone by; of the struggles and the heartbreak I survived; of the tough decisions I made to completely alter my life’s path.

At times like this, it’s really easy to start thinking about the “what ifs” and the “if onlys.”  What if I went through with it? What if that was my only chance at motherhood? If only I never said yes – I love you – I miss you, too. If only he loved me. If only I knew from the start. If only that wasn’t the only option. What if that wasn’t the only option? Continue reading