It comes as no surprise to me now how drawn to the water I was over the past year. When I needed healing, or grace, or a place to go and just be alone, it was the water’s edge that I chose. But why?
Maybe it’s because watching its gentle flow was calming and peaceful. Maybe it’s because I knew how deceiving it really was – the relatively calm appearance hides a powerful force beneath it. Or maybe it’s because I wanted desperately to learn from it: how to be strong, how to adapt under pressure, how to withstand the waves and find myself in a better place.
Whether I was looking for it or not, life always seemed to find a way to get me back to the shoreline. From my impromptu solo road trip to Tobermory, to amazing opportunities provided by my work like canoeing on Eels Creek, fishing on Rice Lake and attending Gros Morne Institute for Sustainable Tourism‘s Edge of the Wedge program in Newfoundland, the aquatic stars were aligning for me.
“Water does not resist. Water flows. When you plunge your hand into it, all you feel is a caress. Water is not a solid wall, it will not stop you. But water always goes where it wants to go, and nothing in the end can stand against it. Water is patient. Dripping water wears away a stone. Remember that, my child. Remember you are half water. If you can’t go through an obstacle, go around it. Water does.” Margaret Atwood, The Penelopiad
My trip to Newfoundland was incredible. If you haven’t been there, add it to your wish list. And if you ever have the chance to attend the Edge of the Wedge experiential tourism course, do. I came back empowered, exhausted, overwhelmed, and filled with a renewed sense of self and purpose. And with that, the determination to “go around” obstacles that I felt were standing in my way. Things that were holding me back from reaching goals, and keeping me from creating a life that I love.
I can’t say that it has been easy. I didn’t find myself gazing at the ocean and all of a sudden BAM! things were different; I was different. This has been a process, much like the state of matter in which water transforms itself from solid to liquid to gas.
That’s all it ever really is… just a continuous process. The ebb and flow. I received some great advice from a friend a few months back, and it went something like this: It’s all about your approach to life, and that, you can choose. You can approach it with fear or you can approach it with love. It’s all up to you which emotion you let influence and control you.
Choose love, my darlings.
And now, this should come as no surprise at all, I’m off to Niagara Falls and learning to embrace these changing tides.