then suddenly, it all works

I have spent much of my life regretting decisions I’ve made. I know I have had many conversations and written multiple blog posts proclaiming, “I live life with no regrets.” But nope, that wasn’t at all true.

From regretting that mean thing I said to a classmate in grade 5, to the “what ifs” surrounding past relationships, to my schooling and career path, to finances, I lived with A LOT of regret.

I was always stuck in the loop of what would have happened if I had done things differently.

And you know what? I seriously got me stuck, literally. Continue reading “then suddenly, it all works”

mom guilt is real.

Besides spending time with the little babe, the other thing that I spend most of my waking hours doing is feeling guilty. I guess this is normal? How long does it last? Will my daily meditation and gratitude practices help me get over this?

We’ll see.

Just for fun, I thought I’d list a bunch of things off the top of my head that I have felt guilty for over the past 6 months. You’ll see why my anxiety levels are pretty high when my mind is constantly on self-attack mode.

Things I feel guilty for:

Continue reading “mom guilt is real.”


Addiction. |

This week, a woman lost her life. She was only 25 years old, and had been struggling for years with addiction, abuse, and homelessness.

Although this is about one woman, it is the story of many in our community and beyond. Those who’ve fallen through the cracks; those who have been ravaged by abuse, torment, and mental illness; those who have tried to find ways to cope and whose control has been lost to those efforts.

Her obituary read that she she died “suddenly.” This has been stirring in my head and my heart the past few days. So here I am, compelled to write a post about when “suddenly” isn’t so sudden.  Continue reading “suddenly”

not just anything

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Happy New Year, my lovely people!

This is a time of reflection for many, as a fresh new calendar year begins we get to look at the 12 months of possibilities that lie ahead. Of course, my mind has been racing leading up to 2018. There are going to be so many changes, and likely lots of challenges as Chad an I embark on a new chapter. But there’s one thing that has been weighing heavy on this heart of mine: personal identity.

Who am I? How did I get here? How do I get to where I want to be? Who do I want to be?

If this is ringing true for you, read on. And if you have any suggestions, please do share! Continue reading “not just anything”

day of the dead

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The Day of the Dead (or Dia de los Muertos) is a very unique holiday. It originated in Mexico and is widely celebrated in Latin America and the United States. Call me clueless, but I never knew anything about this holiday – I don’t think it made it to the list of celebrations from around the world that we studied in grade 4.

I did find myself intrigued by the growing popularity of sugar skull designs and make-up, though. They were popping up everywhere: on screen printed clothing and party supplies, on my Facebook newsfeed, and most notably on Pinterest Halloween costume boards.

For years I wondered: what is this absurd, beautiful, morbid trend with skeletons that’s on the rise? Continue reading “day of the dead”