Snow is falling gently outside. The baby is napping soundly in the nursery. Christmas music is playing. Hot coffee is in hand. Life is good, and I have a few moments to reflect before the Christmas festivities are in full swing.
I don’t feel ready for Christmas, to be honest. I didn’t do it the way I wish I did. We were slow on the uptake of decorating. My gifts aren’t as thoughtful as I want them to be. I haven’t mailed our Christmas cards yet. We don’t even have stockings. But, we have each other. And we have a very blessed life. And we have 365 days until next Christmas Eve so at least I have time to do that one better.
For now, I just need to let it go. That’s what I’m going to spend 2019 doing. Continue reading “honouring the heart”
Snoop Dogg says it best, “I got my mind on my money, my money on my mind.” This has been me for at least the past 5 years of my life. After making some really poor financial decisions (never loan money and NEVER co-sign for anyone), the recovery process has been long and challenging. I am finally getting to the point where I feel confident with myself and my dolla billz. But these past few weeks have had my head spinning with thoughts about expenses, working poor, and wages. Continue reading “money talks”
Many of my faithful followers will have noticed that my last post was deleted a few days after posting. This was not done because I regret putting the truth out there and speaking-out about my situation. I write so that 1) those that I don’t see often have an idea about what’s going on in my life, 2) I have an outlet for my frustrations, worries, memories and passion for writing, and sometimes 3) so I can educate others about the horrors and struggle of being in a toxic relationship and being taken advantage of. If I could keep just one person from following in my footsteps and ending up in a similar mess, I would be happy.
Someone else thinks otherwise.
Continue reading “silenced”
Can you believe it? 2014 is here! How do you feel about last year being over? If you’re like me, you’ve never been happier to see the start of a new year and to throw that old calendar in the trash.
Although I’ve been feeling a little under the weather and didn’t quite ring in the New Year as my youthful self was hoping for (think noisemakers, champagne in excess, high heels and fake-eyelashes), the way it ended up was absolutely perfect. I spent it surrounded by love: my family, my wonderful boyfriend and his family that have welcomed me into their lives. I enjoyed lunch with my best friend, drinks at my favourite bar, took in the beauty of the night sky, a midnight struck by candlelight. Continue reading “welcoming a year of positive verbs”
Some things have come down the pipe that I was expecting, but not so soon. Continue reading “all I want for Christmas”